I don't wanna grow up.

[This was written the summer of 2009 but the concept still applies]
   When I was younger I had a routine; every night from when I was two up until I was thirteen or so I made sure my closet door was sealed tightly and a light was on in or around my room. There were monsters in my room. Especially in my closet, you know the type of monsters that only a young child’s overactive imagination can create? The kind of monsters that hide in every single dark crevice of your room, the kind of monsters that would only be defeated by a bright light or my dad.
     These monsters have packed themselves away into my memories and have been replaced with new kinds of monsters. I have progressed a lot since my night light days. Especially in the past year or so, a lot of things have happened that make me the person I am today. This year I have met some amazing [And some not so amazing] people, I have read Lord of the Flies thirteen times, I have fallen in love, I have gotten my heart broken and repaired. I have gotten into HUGE fights with my parents and I have become best friends with my older sister. I have gained a few really great friends [Hopefully you know who you are<3] and I have lost touch with some others. I have had so many experiences in this past year that I can’t even fathom explaining them all. I’m not the same person I used to be like I feel more mature and rational now and to be quite honest it kind of trips me the fuck out. I’m a teenager I am not supposed to understand what it feels like to be hurt or whatever but I do and so do a lot of others. I’ve learned from my experiences though and it’s the whole learning from the situations that makes me take a step back and over analyze my life. It’s like I went through every single little experience for a reason. The good experiences and the bad experiences they all taught me something, Hell even the experiences I cant really remember effected me in some way. The real point to all of this I’m glad I’ve grown up and learned to be more mature and relaxed about things…

But sometimes I wish I could just go back to having those monsters in my closet.